Allison Holker Recalls Taking Brutal Financial Meetings 1 Day After Stephen 'tWitch' Boss' Death: 'Already Lost So Much'

Allison Holker opens up about dealing with an unexpected financial burden following the death of her husband, Stephen “tWitch” Boss.

During a conversation on SoFi’s talk show Richer lives with Vivian Tu, So you think you can dance the judge, 36, admitted that her late husband’s death had a “huge” financial impact on their family.

“It was very difficult. So I think it’s a very important conversation because you can’t prepare for something like this,” she said of tWitch, who died by suicide at the age of 40 in December 2022. “I never would have seen my life go this way.”

“And after everything that’s happened, of course, I’ve been getting so much love from everyone recently,” she continued. “And I’ve gotten a lot of support from people in terms of emotion, but what people haven’t realized is that there’s a lot more that goes into this than just emotion.”

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After the tragedy, Holker said she began meeting almost immediately to sort out her finances.

“Financially, the day after my husband died, I immediately had to hold meetings about taxes, about the contracts that were in place, and about him being in breach of contract,” she recalled. “Will these contracts exist now? Where will my income come from now that he is in breach of contract because a lot of our business was together?”

As she navigated her own grief and parenting her children — Zaija, 4, Maddox, 8, and Weslie, 16 — Holker realized these meetings were essential to progress.

“I thought, you know what, no one else is going to be able to do it for me, especially now, and we’ve already lost so much, I can’t lose it,” she recalled.

Allison Holker and Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss at the 2022 Industry Dance Awards at Avalon Hollywood & Bardot on October 12, 2022 in Los Angeles, California.

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“I took that role and I said, ‘You know what this is, what’s going to help me survive… This is really, really hard, but I think this is a gift from the universe. Since you have to fix this, this will help you grieve at the same time, take care of everything and not look back,” she continued. “I didn’t want to be the person who grieves first and then does it because I can’t lose more.”

Holker also noted that her late husband left her “in a bit of a bind” when it came to the couple’s brand affairs.

From left: Zaia Boss, Allison Holker, Weslie Fowler, Maddox Laurel Boss and Stephen “tWitch” Boss at the Los Angeles premiere of Illumination and Universal Pictures’ “Minions: The Rise of Gru.” Rodin Eckenroth/WireImage A Look Back at Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss and Allison Holker Boss’s Relationship Timeline: ‘My Forever Person’

“I had to let some brands or some opportunities that were in development, I had to let some of them go,” she said. “I had to be grateful that I had the opportunity to talk to these people and realize that what they got was not what they signed up for. We’ve always been a happy, happy couple with a beautiful family, and now when people saw me in that moment, they saw sadness, and that’s not what the brands were looking for.”

She added: “I kind of became unemployable for a moment and the contracts that were there were like that’s not what we signed up for and I had to be like that, I understand, because that’s also not what I signed up for. So I can’t be mad at them. I understood.”

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However, some brands have stood by the professional dancer amid the loss. She explains, “But luckily, there were so many amazing brands that said, ‘You know what? We’re going to stick with you and help you through this.’”

If you or someone you know is thinking about suicide, contact the 988 Suicide and Crisis Line by dialing 988, texting “STRENGTH” to the Crisis Line at 741741 or going to 988lifeline.org.

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