Amber Rose talks about getting help after struggling with suicidal thoughts.
The Philadelphia-born model, 40, chatted with Jason Lee on this week’s episode Podcast by Jason Leerecalling his difficult mental health journey over the past few years.
“I think I’m strong because I’m still alive,” she said on the show.
“I was very suicidal. I’ve been suicidal for probably three years, maybe three and a half years,” she revealed. “It got so bad I had to call the suicide hotline.”
Lee then asked Rose if she was nervous about being a public figure and calling a public hotline, knowing that the recording of the call could potentially be released.
“I wasn’t feeling well,” she admitted, noting that she had no other choice because she felt like she had no close friends or family members to turn to.
“I don’t have a very big support system around me,” she said. “So I was having a really, really bad day and I called the suicide hotline and they said, ‘From 1 to 10, how likely are you to kill yourself?’ And I’m like, ‘I’m not. I’m not going to kill myself, but I want to. And that’s the problem. I feel like I want to and I don’t know why I feel that way.'”
Amber Rose on Jason Lee’s show.
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Rose said that after “research and therapy” she later realized there were several factors that had taken a toll on her mental health, including her hormones being “out of whack” after the birth of her son in 2019, isolation from the pandemic and going through a “terrible” relationship and public interruption.
“The pandemic definitely did a number on me,” she said.
“I am mentally exhausted because everything in my body is completely disturbed, and then so is everyone [online] is like, ‘You’re not s—. You don’t deserve love,’ Rose explained. “I’m dealing with internal s—, external s—… and I’m just one person. I can only consume so much.”
“Everything kind of broke and I thought I’m not good, I need help,” she said, sharing that she finally found a doctor to help her.
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Rose said the only thing that helped her deal with suicidal thoughts was ketamine therapy.
“I had to microdose ketamine. It’s the only thing that saved my life,” she told Lee. “And my children saved my life because I will not leave my children no matter how bad it is mentally.” Rose shares son Sebastian ‘Bash’ Taylor, 11, with ex-husband, rapper Wiz Khalifa, and son Slash with ex-boyfriend, music director Alexander “AE” Edwards.
“Ketamine has helped me a lot … I get mine from a doctor, which I suggest anyone else do if they want to try it for PTSD or depression or anxiety,” she said, saying she would take the drug before bed. “Over time, it kind of helps you regulate the chemicals in your body so that you feel less depressed, less suicidal.”
Ketamine is “a dissociative anesthetic that has some hallucinogenic effects,” according to the US Drug Enforcement Administration. It “distorts the perception of sight and sound and makes the user feel disconnected and out of control,” and “can cause states of sedation (a feeling of calmness and relaxation), immobility, pain relief, and amnesia.”
Ketamine was approved by the US Food and Drug Administration (FDA) in the 1970s as a short-acting anesthetic. And in 2019, the Food and Drug Administration approved a nasal spray called esketamine, which is derived from ketamine, as a treatment for depression. However, the drug is also taken illegally to get high, as it can put people in a relaxed or detached state.
If you or someone you know is thinking about suicide, contact the 988 Suicide and Crisis Line by dialing 988, texting “STRENGTH” to the Crisis Line at 741741 or going to 988lifeline.org.
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