Billie Eilish Says Writing ‘Barbie’ Track Helped Her Get Out of a ‘Really Dark Place’: ‘I Felt Understood’

Billie Eilish was in a “dark place” before she wrote the Grammy Award Barbie the song “What Was I Made For?”

The singer, 22, and her brother Finneas, 26, took home the coveted turntable for Song of the Year at Sunday’s 2024 Grammy Awards.

After a big win at the Crypto.com Arena in Los Angeles, Eilish — who also walked away with the award for Best Song Written for Visual Media for Barbie track — she talked about how writing the song influenced the music she’s been creating ever since.

“We wrote absolutely nothing before we had the chance to write Barbie,” the “Happier Than Ever” hitmaker told reporters.

“We were working three days a week and we weren’t coming up with things. Even if we were coming up with things, it just didn’t feel right, it didn’t feel right, it didn’t feel real. And I got really worried. I got nervous,” Eilish continued. “I felt like it was going to be over a little bit. I was in a really dark place; a really, really dark place, and it’s kind of hard for me to remember it.”

Billie Eilish and her brother Finneas in the press room at the 2024 Grammy Awards.

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Credit to Eilish Barbie to director Greta Gerwig for offering the siblings “this life-changing thing that we didn’t realize was going to be so life-changing.”

The musician went on to tell how she and her brother wrote the song “24 hours after we saw the movie and we wrote it [in] less than two hours, if not an hour.”

“And honestly, since then we’ve just been creative again. I don’t know. It woke us up and brought us back to our thing and it was really special and powerful and I hold it very dear to my heart,” Eilish continued.

Women dominated the 2024 Grammys, with women including Taylor Swift and Miley Cyrus walking away with top awards.

Billie Eilish poses with her Grammy at the 2024 ceremony.

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Eilish said the win made her feel “seen” as a woman in the industry.

“I would say that a lot of the time as a woman, I feel like nobody sees you. And I feel like that makes me feel very seen and I feel like, I don’t know, sometimes it’s really good to have someone say ‘good job,'” she told reporters .

“Even the smallest little thing goes a long way. And this is not at all small, but I feel very seen. I feel very listened to. And I didn’t expect that with this song”, they admitted that when they were coming up with the song, she wasn’t sure “how much” it would ” translate”.

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“I felt kind of out of the box. I felt like I felt isolated in my own world, and I was really in a period of my life where I didn’t feel seen at all,” Eilish said. “And then the way people reacted when it came out, I was absolutely blown away by the way I felt understood. And this goes even further than that.”

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Eilish performed “What Was I Made For?” at Sunday’s 66th Grammy Awards. She will next take the stage at the 2024 Oscars to sing the song, which is up for Best Original Song along with another song Barbie the tune “I’m Just Ken” as well as “It Never Went Away” from the Netflix documentary American Symphony“Wahzhazhe (Song for my people)” from Killers of the Flower Moonand “The Fire Inside” from Flamin’ Hot.

If she wins there, it will be Eilish’s second Oscar. She won in 2022 for “No Time to Die”, her theme for the James Bond film of the same name.

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