The title track of Reneé Rapp’s debut album Angel in the snow is inspired by a very dark moment.
In a new interview with Jay Shetty Deliberately podcast, the 23-year-old actress and singer-songwriter opened up about how “Snow Angel” was written about the time she was drugged during a night out and woke up alone in a bathroom stall several hours later.
Although the song has been out since June, Rapp told Shetty that she hasn’t explained its full meaning yet, but promised fans that she will one day. She also revealed that the incident happened in early 2022. “I just went through a breakup and it was really hard,” she said. “It was the first time I was really in love with someone and then broke up.”
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As someone who had been in an almost constant relationship for about five years, Rapp found herself alone for the first time in her life at the age of 22 with a sense of “freedom.” “I was living here in LA and I was hanging out with a new group of people, and they were party people,” she recalled, noting that family and friends advised her that it wasn’t a “good group” to hang out with. .
“I really let go of my judgment when it comes to the people around me,” Rapp said, looking back on the night. “We’ve all been out, and it’s been situation after situation where they just couldn’t be trusted, and then the next thing you know I was face up, lying in a bathroom stall in a hotel bar, just waking up [at] 5 in the morning, all alone.”
“I woke up and I was so confused, I had blood on my pants and I was really caught off guard,” she continued. “I was all alone in the bathroom stall and I looked at my phone and it was 5 in the morning and I was like, ‘What happened?!'”
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That’s when Rapp realized she’d missed two text messages sent by people in the hangout group around 10:30 p.m., but by then everyone — including her romantic interest in the circle of friends — had left the bar.
“I was drugged and gone for seven hours,” she said. “I stopped being friends with those people and I stopped having as much fun as I used to. I told my parents, I told some of my friends. I explained it in a very simple way, and they were all very worried, and I didn’t even understand what is happening.”
It wasn’t until several months later that she was able to “really get to the bottom” of what happened that night. “I kind of started dealing with everything that happened, and I was just crying, so upset, very confused, and then resentful of these friends that I was with,” Rapp said.
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Renee Rapp.
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About a year later, she wrote “Snow Angel” with collaborator Alexander 23 and told him about the situation. He wasn’t the only person she told the details to, but he was the first one who didn’t make her give up on the idea of writing a song.
“I didn’t feel anything until we recorded the song, the whole thing was done, and I played it for a bunch of my friends and my manager, and they were all like, ‘This is crazy,'” Rapp added. “But for me, that whole year of my life was an inherent resilience.”
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