Crystal Hefner Says Late Husband Hugh Hefner Wanted Her to Remain ‘Skinny’ with ‘Big Fake Boobs’

“I quickly learned, okay, things aren’t what they seem here,” Crystal said of her time at the Playboy Mansion.

Crystal Hefner speaks candidly about the unrealistic expectations Hugh Hefner had for her during their relationship.

In a clip from the upcoming episode Show Tamron Hall, got E! News, Crystal, 37, explained that she survived the “butchery” environment of the Playboy mansion by transforming into what her late husband wanted her to be, physically and personally.

When host Tamron Hall asked who Hugh’s ideal woman was, Crystal said: “I think he wanted me to just be seen and not speak, to be helpless, to be small…to have bleach blonde hair and to stay thin and that I have a big, fake tit.”

“That’s part of it,” she added.

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Crystal continued to give examples Playboy behavior of the founder and editor-in-chief. (She was married to him from 2012 until his death in 2017 at the age of 91.)

The model said that when her naturally brown roots grew out, he would pat her on the head and remind her to refresh her hair color.

Crystal also recalled that when she gained weight after moving into his mansion, Hugh would pat her thighs and make comments like, “Oh, looks like someone needs to tone up.”

Hugh Hefner (L) and model Crystal Hefner at Playboy’s 2015 Annual Halloween Party.

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Hugh’s words, Crystal said, would make her feel like, “I’m falling.”

“So I quickly learned, okay, here things aren’t really what they seem,” she added.

The real estate agent also told Hall, 53, in the recording that she had changed her personality to match her husband’s.

“I made myself small and just mirrored Hef, and I ended up liking what he liked,” she explained.

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Last month, in an exclusive interview with PEOPLE promoting her book about life with Hugh titled Say Only Good Things: Surviving Playboy and Finding Yourself, Crystal admitted that she loves her husband, but that she was never “in love” with him.

“I realized I was dealing with a really big power imbalance,” she said. “It seemed like a world of success and fantasy, but everyone has to sleep with an 80-year-old. There is a price. Everything has a price.”

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