Rachel “Raquel” Leviss is ready to tell her own story after Scandal.
In the trailer for her new podcast Rachel goes roguethe Vanderpump Rules The alum, 29, reflects on her involvement in a “horrible scandal” after her months-long affair with costar Tom Sandoval went public in March, ending his nine-year relationship with Leviss’ friend and co-star Ariana Madix.
“I know that what I did was morally wrong and I understand,” she admits. “I am angry.”
Leviss says she’s now back in Los Angeles after spending “90 days in a trauma center without a phone, with all new people and working with different therapists.”
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“I started to notice a pattern in my behavior and I wanted to change those things,” she says. “I completely removed myself from the recording environment, i.e Vanderpump Rulesand you won’t see me [on] season 11.”
The former reality star calls it a “mistake” to return for season 10 after splitting with co-star James Kennedy, explaining: “Looking back on that season, I was at my lowest point. Filming Vanderpump Rules after breaking off my engagement to James, that was my first mistake because I should have taken the time to heal and find a therapist.”
However, she insists she was right to have a “no contact policy” with her ex-fiancé – who is now in a relationship with Ally Lewber – while filming the hit Bravo show, but still questions his actions after the divorce. “When we’re working together and filming together and he’s flaunting his new girlfriend, who he met three weeks after I broke off the engagement, it hurt, and so many questions went through my head like: Did he ever really love me? How did he is it possible to love someone and then get over them so quickly?” she says.
She adds: “I drank a ton [during] season 10 and that’s no excuse. I’m just blank, like I wasn’t in a good mental space.”
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Leviss says she decided not to continue filming Vanderpump Rules it comes from “learning” from your mistakes.
“Looking back and seeing how much it hurt me to interact with James on camera and see his new girlfriend, I could only imagine the pain I would have caused filming in the same environment with Ariana,” she says. “Because hooking up with someone’s boyfriend while they’re still in a relationship is a big betrayal and so painful, but then to continue working with those people and interacting with them — maybe not even talking — but listening to what they’re talking about and seeing your person that you loved so much and think she loves you as much as you love them to talk to that other person.”
“That would be so disastrous and I didn’t want to do that to Ariana,” she says. “I didn’t want to put her in that position.”
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Ariana Madix; Tom Sandoval; Rachel “Raquel” Leviss.
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The TV personality also gives an update on where he stands with the rest Vanderpump Rules honor.
“With acting, I don’t have a lot of boundaries, but physical violence crosses the line for me and if you attack me, I’m going to kick you out of my life,” she says, referring to the alleged punch of actress Scheana Shay. Shay has consistently denied the allegations, and Leviss dropped a restraining order against the star in March.
“I haven’t heard from any of them and I don’t really necessarily want to hear from any of them other than Tom sending me a happy birthday message on my Instagram via a comment,” she shares. “And he couldn’t text me because I blocked him the day I got my phone back after the treatment, but he could have treated me instead of making a public comment and that’s what I thought about. a lots of.”
She continues, “I mean, for him, because I’m just trying to put myself in his shoes like he was doing it out of spite or he was doing it to say ‘I wish you the best’ because it seems like it could go either way. ”
The trailer ends with Leviss addressing when she should have stopped having any contact with Sandoval, 41.
“It was a difficult process for me to completely cut him out of my life because of the story I would tell myself about our relationship that we had,” she explains. “It seems so special and so real, but when you look at the cold, hard facts and write them down on a piece of paper and you see all these red flags clear as day that will get you out of denial.”
“And once I was broken out of denial and realized how manipulative he was, I couldn’t put myself in a situation where, at my most vulnerable, it would probably send me back into those old patterns that I’m trying to break without,” she adds. stepping back and removing myself from the chaos allowed me to gain some clarity—in fact, a lot of clarity about the situation.”
“I look back on the 10th season. Oh God, it’s been a really hard season to look back on because I cringe at all the things and all the moments they caught on camera. It’s really annoying. But I see a girl who’s going through pain and she doesn’t have the right tools to deal with it and she’s dealing with it and the way she feels like her needs are met is someone who adores her and gives her attention and I’m really not put your friendships first when I got involved with Tom and I regret it very much.”
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Rachel goes rogue premiering on iHeartRadio on January 8, 2024.
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